My spring break has gotten better. I feel a lot better. I got my hair done..it didn;t turn out how it was supposed to BUT..I still like it. I mean I kind of am the guinea pig for my family. I have 2 hair stylists in my family and they just experiment on me. So it doesn't bother me to have my hair messed around with. We had a new baby calf today, and one a couple of days ago too. I am kind of enjoying time away from school and home but I'll be ready to get back and get in the swing of things. I like normal routine but I'm also very spontanious. I hardly ever plan anything way in advance. So..I am determined to do 100% better in my classes this half of the semester than in my first half. Part of the reason I've been struggling is because it is my very first semester in college and I'm having to support myself and pay for my apartment and bills and then there's church, I'm the Youth Drama Director there and a youth leader and a choir member so..I stay pretty busy. I may have already mentioned that before..I don't remember..anyways. I guess that's it for today. Peace out!

I've had a very eventful time since my Friday bout mid-day. I started feeling funny and went to the nurse's station but they were closed and so then I went home and called the doctor back and told him what I was feeling and he told me to come back in so I did. Then they ran a bunch of tests on me and couldn't figure out what was wrong so they sent me to the ER to have more tests done. Meanwhile, I'm in horrible pain and feel like I could pass out, my throat's swollen to no end and I'm running a fever and aching all over. Mono and strep came back negative and I'm still waiting on the flu test and the bad thing is, this happened to me less than a year ago, same symptoms and everything. I ended up in the hospital then and I ended up in the hospital this time. Tests were run both times and both times they can come to no conclusion of what's going on in my body. Don't mind if I say that that's a little weird to me. Kind of worries me a bit. Nothing I can do about it in the meantime. I am home for spring break unless the hospital calls me and tells me I have to come back or something. I'm out my throats starting to hurt again...more pain meds!!!!..YAY!

I am SOOO sick!! I went to the doctor yesterday and he told me that I had a tube messed up and it's all swollen and blocked and it hurts an incredible amount of pain!! I have meds for it..but they knock me out and I don't wanna be sleepy in class. I am debating on what to do for spring break because I want to go home but if I leave tonight then I'll have to come back saturday night then leave again monday morning and then come back again wednesday night to get ready to leave for winterfest thursday morning! OH! I got my poem collage thing back from Mrs. Looper and I love it! I love writing poetry and I especially like that one. It's different. I don't have her class today which is good..so I can take my meds and go pass out somewhere. I am sad because all of my friends left today to go off for spring break and I am left here all alone. I hate being alone!..sometimes..not all the time though..but this time I do! Anyways..Until next time..Arrivederci!

It really seems like my life is falling apart right now. Everything you can think has gone wrong. I've been holding back tears for 2 days now. And somehow, through the grace of God I;ve managed to hold myself together and even more than that, be in a great mood and have a great day. I know that God will always provide for me better than the the birds that he provided for and I know his plan and timing is perfect. So I'm not gonna tear myself up over something I can't fix. I don't know how I'm gonna find a new job or what's gonna happen with Savannah, but he'll find something perfect for me. I am anxious to know how I did on that computer test, and to get started on the first part. I think I'll do really good. I know I bombed the back part of the second test but I tried my hardest to make it work! I'm apparently just not as good as I thought I'd be at computers. I can feel and hear my voice getting stronger, which is awesome I mean, it is my major. Ok I'm out.

Okie Dokie artichokee. My weekend was completely nuts. I had to write my three essays for Looper and study for my test for computers and my one on Wednesday for Civ, along with working and church and drama practice and shooping for household supplies. UGH! I didn't sleep at all saturday night, was at the school all night and left that morning to go get ready for church, then finally got to bed last night at I think 5? I am tired, but rest will come in due time I suupose. I have a test today and I'm soo excited cause I studied so hard and I really think I'm gonna do really good!..But the test is about to start so I gotta go!..Later!!

It's been pretty good for the past couple of days. I'm still sick, and mid-terms are here. I have been trying to get caught up on all my work. This weekend is so busy for me :'( . I have to work and to go to church and to study for mid-terms and to clean my house and to call the Humane Society and..ugh! I will be glad when spring break gets here. I need a break. Rain, rain, rain. When it's raining we want sun, when it's hot we want cold, when it's cold we want hot, when we get what we wanted we realize we want something else more. People are soo complicated! Life is too short. Be happy with what ya got and thank God for giving you what he wants you to have. Don't get mad over stupid little things. People get so defensive of their opinions or ideas. Diversity is apart of life. Deal with it. I love diversity. It makes life interesting. I am determined to try my hardest and to the best of my ability to do as good as I can in all of my classes. I am a hard worker, and I am still getting used to having to balance everything. I may be struggling a little bit, but I'm learning. I wrote an awesome poem the other day. I love poetry. I started writing it when I was nine. I've always been involved in the arts. I am a free spirit. My mom always says that I have the spirit of a wild horse (in a good way). I roam free, not much bothers me. I love life. try to tell me I can't and I'll buck harder than anything to prove you wrong. ANYWAYS! I guess that's enough for today. Au revoir!

It's been an absolutely crazy weekend. Not one I expected. I had planned on going home this past weekend to spend some time with my family, but then I got a phone call after my last class on Friday. My mom informed me that papaw had been in a head on collision and was being air lifted to Erlanger. I quickly packed my things and rushed home but before I could make it to the hospital he died. So this weekend was a weekend spent with family, at an unexpected and heartbreaking event. Again, not what I expected. After the funeral monday I drove back home and got in at about 11:30 PM. I have been sick for the past 4 days, and I'm tired. I really hope my teachers will let me make-up my work that I missed. I am so afraid that I'll be behind now. I can't think of anything else to say. I would like to dedicate this blog to Papaw Williams. Goodbye.