I went out of town Monday afternoon and did not return until last night late. I am tired, sick (still), busy, weak, looking for a job, waiting to hear back from people, tired of dealing with other people, and all I want to do is first go to a real doctor to figure out what's wrong with me and second go home and curl up in my bed and fall asleep. I completely bombed my computers test today. It's like no matter how hard I try to do good in that class, I just don't. I don't get it. It doesn't click. AHHHHHHH. My stomach hurts soo bad right now. I am glad that we don't have choir this week! I need a break, and I need to focus on my juries songs. I am waiting right now to meet with my advisor about next semester so I can start registering for classes. I'm gonna work it all out so I can do everything a little smoother and quicker and easier. I miss my mom. Me and the new neighbors just about had it out this morning. They were yelling "f" words at each other and stomping around and so I went up to their door and knocked and they never answered. Then I went back downstairs and tried to get ready then they started again and were right above me and I had had it so at the top of my lungs I yelled "Stop yelling at each other my gosh!" and it got quiet and then he yelled back "We're just teasing". See I have this problem with violence or yelling because of the way my childhood was and it bothers me and I start shaking and my nerves get all jumpy, so I just couldn't take it. I left. They'll probably say something to me later. UGH