I went out of town Monday afternoon and did not return until last night late. I am tired, sick (still), busy, weak, looking for a job, waiting to hear back from people, tired of dealing with other people, and all I want to do is first go to a real doctor to figure out what's wrong with me and second go home and curl up in my bed and fall asleep. I completely bombed my computers test today. It's like no matter how hard I try to do good in that class, I just don't. I don't get it. It doesn't click. AHHHHHHH. My stomach hurts soo bad right now. I am glad that we don't have choir this week! I need a break, and I need to focus on my juries songs. I am waiting right now to meet with my advisor about next semester so I can start registering for classes. I'm gonna work it all out so I can do everything a little smoother and quicker and easier. I miss my mom. Me and the new neighbors just about had it out this morning. They were yelling "f" words at each other and stomping around and so I went up to their door and knocked and they never answered. Then I went back downstairs and tried to get ready then they started again and were right above me and I had had it so at the top of my lungs I yelled "Stop yelling at each other my gosh!" and it got quiet and then he yelled back "We're just teasing". See I have this problem with violence or yelling because of the way my childhood was and it bothers me and I start shaking and my nerves get all jumpy, so I just couldn't take it. I left. They'll probably say something to me later. UGH

I'm soo excited today!! My friend Julie is in labor and she's having her first baby and I can't wait to meet little Leland!!! It's been raining all day, but it hasn't been a bad day. I am gonna be able to get new glasses which excites me to no end, and hopefully I am getting things worked out today to be able to straighten out my finances. I'm crossing my fingers and praying to God that it all goes well. He will always take care of me and give me exactly what I need and never more than I can handle, so I'm not worried about it. My friends say they wish they would learn to trust God like me. I don't tell anyone that because I don't want credit for it. I just know that God loves me and will do everything to show me. I need a roommate really bad..I also need to find a way to either get rid of my new neighbors or tell them or my landlord about the noise disturbance. It would be funny and really bad if I called the police for noise disturbance..haha..anyways..I gotta cut this short I have things to do. Adios!

Umm..ok..so like...yeah...like..so...umm..I'm in a better mood today BUT I woke up sick again..I prayed about some stuff and I think I'm coming up with some solutions after a talk with a friend. Also, I've realized..I need new friends. OH! I think I completely aced my test this morning in civ class! That excites me because I am making a B in that class and I would much rather have an A so I'm making extra efforts in all of my classes to kick it up a notch. So, my new neighbors are driving me insane..they make all the noise in the world and it sounds like the ceiling is about to fall in on me, and you don't even wanna know what I heard them doing last night while I was trying to study...UGH!..so disturbing. I was soo angry. I want to say something to my landlord but I'm not the kind of person to disturb the peace, but the other night the guy came down drunk..which was weird. HELP!!!

I'm so tired of being sick. It's like everytime I start to get over something, something new comes along. It's ridiculous. I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm beginning to think I have some kind of disease or something. For real. Besides that, I got a pretty good grade on my computer assignment so I'm happy about that. Someone asked me how my weekend was and my response was, I don't remember. I mean, I was so busy all weekend I don't remember how my weekend actually was. That's weird, but at least I was productive! I got my new neighbors upstairs. I told them that I could hear everything and I really think they took me lightly. I can hear them walk, talk, turn something on, I can hear their phone ring I can hear when they drop something, I can even hear their dog walk across the floor. I really meant everything and I don't think they got it. They don't seem very social, which sucks for me cause I am very social. I was up late all weekend looking up verses for my drama team. We just came up with a new name, Souled Out, with the phrase, Are you souled out for God?, and now I just have to find a verse. I really like Psalm 62:5, I think it's my favorite. Well class is about to start so I guess I'll go. Mr. Fox, if you actually read these you have to give me a sign of proof. Say bologna in the next class and I'll die laughing and noone will know except me..hahahaha. Later

Know that feeling when you're starving? GREAT! I am. I met a couple of new people today..we're gonna be good friends!!! I have had THE most amazing day ever! I layed out in the grass on a blanket with my best friend for a few minutes before class because the day is beautiful! Although I still can't sing (banned by my voice coach, choir teacher, and juries coach) *sigh*..but I can't sing right now anyways..my voice is SHOT! Piano kicked my butt today..like I almost started crying in class cause I like couldn't get what I had been working on soo hard..I worked on it for a long time and then went to class and she tried to help me but it only seemed to get worse..AHHHH..anyways. I think I am finally gonna get to work out tonight which is awesome!..usually people just tell me that they will work out with me and then bail..lol..I realized today that if things don't work out the way you think they have to or the way that you planned that it's gonna be ok and I can cross that bidge when I get to it...in other words..Savannah applied to Gainsville today :'(..which means she prolly won't be coming back here next year. *sigh*..It will work out..Ciao

We had another calf today. It almost didn't make it. We had to bottle feed it and it can barely stand up. Things don't look good for the little fella. I had other plans today but sometimes life takes its course and there's nothing you can do about it. It's funny how that happens. I have to drive back home today, Hiawassee home anyways. It'll be good to get back but I miss being home like this a lot. It's soo much fun. I love grilled cheese sandwiches!! Chicken is my favorite food though. I could eat chicken everyday for every meal! Growing up my dad always said that I was gonna turn into a chicken from eating so much of it. lol. That always made me laugh. It's funny how you don't seem to realize as much the miracles that life on a farm can hold until you're no longer there everyday. I love it. I'll always be a country girl. Born and raised and that's how I'll stay! I gotta go feed a baby calf. Toodles

I have been sooo tired all day! I had to run all over town today. By the way, I absolutely HATE it when the weather does this back and forth thing. Cold, hot, cold, hot. UGH! Make up your mind mother nature! So Friday we're leaving for Gatlinburg, Go Winterfest! I have two chihuahua's, and despite people's opinions of this breed of dog, mine are nothing like regular ones. I'm really good at training dogs so from the time I got them I started training and they are the best well mannered chihuahua's in the world. Even Savannah (who doesn't like ANY chihuahua's loves them) So, my point. I was watching them play earlier today and they make me laugh soo hard! I have a boy named Bobo that's almost 3 yrs old and a girl name Khloe that's about 1 and 1/2. Bobo could be an agility course dog, but with school I don't have time to do it with him. I love them. And that's that.